When the light goes out – not the light in the bathroom or the upstairs closet – no, the light in your eyes; that dim orb of humanity, the apex of my focus, my lighthouse. When that fades, will I be gone too? Will the memory of my touch, those living kisses we shared under the moonlight – will they go too? Never to be remembered. Never to be mentioned. Never?
Am I invisible without your existence? The closeness of living our shared life bears that question. We sat and ate, breathing in and out, side by side, bearing the highs and lows like waves billowing against the sandbanks till our efforts waned and the tide drew out. The carnage of our choices remain dented in the sand, only to be washed away by the next generation and the next, the endless cycle of invisibility.
Your eyes are closing now and I can feel my memories being sucked away, vacuumed into eternity where you will be without me. All the anger, the sulks and frustration fade in the drowning sun that once swam across your brown irises. As I say goodbye I know that a part of me has gone too. I’m halved. What remains is the nothingness that survived your demise. I’m afraid.
Tomorrow, the world will awaken refreshed and anew. I will still be here, missing you.
Each time I lose hope in my children following in my footsteps, one little sprog surprises me. All that kicking and fussing that I do to make them read books, enjoy literature, watch educational programmes that put them to sleep in under five minutes – well, it feels pointless when they point their glum faces at me. That is, until today. Continue reading “It’s in the family”
The Bracknell Forest Library Service are loading new videos of books read by their authors for your enjoyment during lockdown. I was lucky enough to be included in their line up with my book, Space Dust. If you recall, this little adventure was written for the Library Service during last year’s Summer Reading Challenge.
Writing a book is one thing; recording it without my comical faces or extreme hand gestures was near to impossible! Add to that the intermittent sounds of Millie, our dog, joining in the recording and you have a video of Space Dust.
If you’d listen to watch the story, click on the pic below:
If you’d like to buy your own copy, paperback or ebook, click on the pic below:
Stuck at home? Need to get away from the mundane?
Escape to a land where romance pulses through the red soil. Soak up the secrets that Amanda has tried to hide and witness the heat as Alex and Amanda try to resist the unwanted passion that threatens to destroy their worlds.
5 out of 5 stars.
Deception by Eloise De Sousa is the heartbreaking story of Amanda, her young son Zachary, and Alex. Their lives are woven together more than they know, as they take a harrowing trip down a trail full of lies and deceit to find the truth and try to capture the future that they both see at the end of the trail. Amanda ran from home shortly after learning she was pregnant; scared and heartbroken over the betrayal from her family, she ran far and fast. Alex is there to help rescue Amanda and Zachary, while hoping Amanda can rescue him from the pain and loneliness of losing his wife. When the truth starts to come out, people want to make sure it’s never known. Torn by his own loss and the lies surrounding that night, Alex is standoffish but quickly realizes his love for Amanda. Zachary is just five, but already learning that life isn’t always easy. Used by adults to try to get what they want, he’s lucky to have his mother there and a man that already thought of him as his own son to protect him from the people trying to hurt him.
Deception by Eloise De Sousa makes you wonder what would you do for your family and how far would you go to get what you want? Eloise De Sousa’s characters feel real and the imagery she uses places you right there with Amanda, Alex, and poor Zachary as they follow the path to finding the truth and their happily ever after. Deception kept me on the edge of my seat and was almost impossible to put down. I just had to know what happened next and I wasn’t satisfied until I’d read the entire thing! Eloise De Sousa did an amazing job tying everything together and showing just how far some people will go to get what they want and to protect the ones they love.
Deception is available on Kindle, Kobo, Nook, Ibooks and direct from Lulu.