When the light goes out – not the light in the bathroom or the upstairs closet – no, the light in your eyes; that dim orb of humanity, the apex of my focus, my lighthouse. When that fades, will I be gone too? Will the memory of my touch, those living kisses we shared under the moonlight – will they go too? Never to be remembered. Never to be mentioned. Never?
Am I invisible without your existence? The closeness of living our shared life bears that question. We sat and ate, breathing in and out, side by side, bearing the highs and lows like waves billowing against the sandbanks till our efforts waned and the tide drew out. The carnage of our choices remain dented in the sand, only to be washed away by the next generation and the next, the endless cycle of invisibility.
Your eyes are closing now and I can feel my memories being sucked away, vacuumed into eternity where you will be without me. All the anger, the sulks and frustration fade in the drowning sun that once swam across your brown irises. As I say goodbye I know that a part of me has gone too. I’m halved. What remains is the nothingness that survived your demise. I’m afraid.
Tomorrow, the world will awaken refreshed and anew. I will still be here, missing you.
It was great to see children joining up for the online author session with the Bracknell Forest Library today. With so many children burnt out from screen time, I didn’t think I would get to see such enthusiastic faces and share ideas with like minded creatives during our hour long session.
The start was a bit wobbly with my early entry into the Zoom meeting, which reduced the time available. Luckily, the super librarian, Sarah, created a link to a second session so that we could continue with story time once the first session timed out. Moofy and Flo took their debut, sharing their story of how things can sometimes go wrong when helping friends. The children responded well to the story and gave a thumbs up to my questions about helping others.
We then moved on to a second story for the older children called Cecil the Bully. Reading it aloud reminded me of how much fun it is to capture villains we encounter in our every day life. The children engaged with the story and were happy to continue after an interruption in the session to click onto the new link. We broke the story telling up with an activity of creating our own villains. What an amazing bunch of children! Some very creative ideas came out of the session and very inventive names for their villains. A very talented boy called Andrew even had time to draw his robotic villain and shared the illustration at the end of the session.
Cecil and his gang didn’t get to finish their tale of slapstick pranks at the Easter Sticky Competition, but I do hope the children enjoyed their time listening to the stories and the illustrations which I posted on the shared screen. It was a very different session compared to the face to face meetings we usually have in the library. As the world evolves and changes to the circumstances we are now presented with, we will continue to adapt and apply our skills to entertaining and educating the children online. After all, the children today proved that you don’t need excessive amounts of time to create villains, and the super heroes required to fight them.
Feedback from today’s session:
“Dear Bracknell Library,
I wanted to say how much my son and I both enjoyed Elouise’s virtual story time this morning.
Eloise De Sousa’s session was so enjoyable. She tailored the story time so that it was suitable for all ages; I saw children from KS1, aged 5-7 AND KS2, aged 7-11 engaging with the session and it was clear everyone especially loved the work-shop style element at the end of her readings.
Thank you so much for providing these free of charge to families during this difficult time. It really has raised our spirits this morning and my son is now inspired to start writing a new book!
Encouraging our children to learn through lockdown has been a challenging process. From online lessons to socially distanced picnic meet ups – we have tried it all! Listening to their needs, we’ve discovered that writing prompts are not enough. Temptation has turned most children to televisions, social media and gaming instead of learning, writing and creating. We have had to do more with our sessions to capture their attention and keep them enthused. Here is what we have done to provide our young writers with enough inspiration to keep writing…
Each time I lose hope in my children following in my footsteps, one little sprog surprises me. All that kicking and fussing that I do to make them read books, enjoy literature, watch educational programmes that put them to sleep in under five minutes – well, it feels pointless when they point their glum faces at me. That is, until today. Continue reading “It’s in the family”→
After a wobbly start to Scat’s re-launch, thanks to C19, Scat has finally found firm footing for his return. Ready to face his readers with a new cover and a revised version of his book, this wily feline feels confident that more children will enjoy his fabulous tale.
Bullying affects everyone. It’s not easy to overcome the sense of helplessness you feel when you are bullied by someone. Nor is it easy to understand that some bullies have their own terrible tales to tell. Scat follows the path of vengeance against his bully but soon learns that there are consequences to every action.
Watch Scat’s story here and share it with your family and friends.
The Bracknell Forest Library Service are loading new videos of books read by their authors for your enjoyment during lockdown. I was lucky enough to be included in their line up with my book, Space Dust. If you recall, this little adventure was written for the Library Service during last year’s Summer Reading Challenge.
Writing a book is one thing; recording it without my comical faces or extreme hand gestures was near to impossible! Add to that the intermittent sounds of Millie, our dog, joining in the recording and you have a video of Space Dust.
If you’d listen to watch the story, click on the pic below:
If you’d like to buy your own copy, paperback or ebook, click on the pic below:
Escape to a land where romance pulses through the red soil. Soak up the secrets that Amanda has tried to hide and witness the heat as Alex and Amanda try to resist the unwanted passion that threatens to destroy their worlds.
☆☆☆☆☆5 out of 5 stars.
Reviewed by April Gilly for Readers’ Favorite
Deception by Eloise De Sousa is the heartbreaking story of Amanda, her young son Zachary, and Alex. Their lives are woven together more than they know, as they take a harrowing trip down a trail full of lies and deceit to find the truth and try to capture the future that they both see at the end of the trail. Amanda ran from home shortly after learning she was pregnant; scared and heartbroken over the betrayal from her family, she ran far and fast. Alex is there to help rescue Amanda and Zachary, while hoping Amanda can rescue him from the pain and loneliness of losing his wife. When the truth starts to come out, people want to make sure it’s never known. Torn by his own loss and the lies surrounding that night, Alex is standoffish but quickly realizes his love for Amanda. Zachary is just five, but already learning that life isn’t always easy. Used by adults to try to get what they want, he’s lucky to have his mother there and a man that already thought of him as his own son to protect him from the people trying to hurt him.
Deception by Eloise De Sousa makes you wonder what would you do for your family and how far would you go to get what you want? Eloise De Sousa’s characters feel real and the imagery she uses places you right there with Amanda, Alex, and poor Zachary as they follow the path to finding the truth and their happily ever after. Deception kept me on the edge of my seat and was almost impossible to put down. I just had to know what happened next and I wasn’t satisfied until I’d read the entire thing! Eloise De Sousa did an amazing job tying everything together and showing just how far some people will go to get what they want and to protect the ones they love.
Whilst working towards completing another crime thriller this year, I was pleased to receive another five star review for The Iron Pendulum.
Needless to say, I appreciate all reviews, good or bad, but this one made my day:
This book was an impulse purchase. I was looking for something different and enjoy reading material by less well known and/or up and coming authors. I wasn’t disappointed. It’s a gripping page turner than offers a fantastic and unexpected twist at the end. I am always fascinated by the ideas that get woven in to novels. This story is full of characters you can try to get inside the mind of. Super. Highly recommended!
I had great fun introducing the Writers’ Club to the children at Wooden Hill Primary School today. They have a treasure trove of storytellers who were incredible at helping me pull a story together from broken bits of information – what I like to call ‘broken telephone storytelling’!
I look forward to meeting the new club members next week.